30 Desember 2005

Satu hari sebelum malam tahun baru 2006

Sekarang harinya berbahasa Indonesia..
 
Yah, hari ini sehari sebelum malam tahun baru. Tahun 2005, apa yang telah aku lakukan padamu? Apa pula yang telah kamu lakukan padaku?
 
Kalau anda baca sebuah buku yang berjudul "Mimpi-mimpi Einstein" karangan seorang fisikawan modern *saya lupa namanya*, anda akan menjumpai sebuah pemahaman akan waktu.. sebuah dimensi yang manusia tidak pernah bisa kuasai. Yah, kita akan merenungi bagaimana bagi penalaran manusia bahwa waktu adalah relatif. Saya selalu menyukai buku itu, saya pernah diberi buku tersebut oleh seorang teman, dan hilang, kemudian saya beli sendiri, dan hilang lagi.. Tuh kan, bukunya saja 'relatif' untuk saya, apalagi waktunya.. :P
 
Back to the topic, eh maksudnya kembali ke topik semula (harus bahasa Indonesia ya..)
 
Pernah berpikir tidak bahwa pada suatu saat muda, ada saat dimana kita diminta menunjukan kartu identitas kita untuk masuk tempat-tempat tertentu.. kemudian kita tidak perlu menunjukan kartu identitas kita untuk masuk tempat tersebut.. dan kemudian tak terasa kemudian, kita diminta kembali menunjukan kartu identitas kita untuk mendapatkan diskon khusus untuk manula :).. Dengan berjalannya waktu, dunia akan mengembalikan kita pada keadaan semula. Seperti kata pepatah lama: Hidup seperti roda pedati, kadang di atas kadang di bawah.
 
Jadi, 2005 apa yang telah terjadi ya?
1. Saya bekerja pada perusahaan baru dengan bidang yang relatif baru dan posisi yang bisa dibilang relatif baru lagi.. Pendapatan mungkin turun, tapi Alhamdulillah masih cukup2 saja.. Kata bos saya, yang penting berkah!
2. Saya memulai praktikum saya dengan mentor yang tepat mengenai bagaimana mencari kawan dan mempengaruhi orang, wanita dan pria..
3. Saya menjalankan setahun penuh kurang satu hari (masih kurang satu hari kan?), menjadi pejantan tunggal, alias jomblo.. bukan karena ga laku lho, tapi karena hal-hal yang belum waktunya diceritakan disini *basi..* 
4. Selanjutnya, saya berkenalan dan mempelajari berbagai profesi baru.. terutama yang berkaitan dengan 'hospitality business'. Tidak rugi untuk berkenalan dengan orang2 yang berdedikasi terhadap profesinya. Seperti kata kompas, buka mata buka telinga..
 
Banyak yang terjadi.. banyak yang berubah.. banyak yang diubah.. tapi secara keseluruhan, tahun ini adalah salah satu tahun pembelajaran saya.. "Student of life will stop learning when he's not alive anymore". Saya belajar, maka saya hidup.
 
Tahun 2006? Masih banyak peluang untuk tumbuh berkembang.. kelakuan saja masih perlu banyak perbaikan.. hubungan dengan-Nya? Time management? Money management? Career? Relationship or even marriage *wow* ? Yah, masih banyak lah daftarnya.. tapi seperti kata pepatah, bila murid sudah siap, maka guru akan muncul.
 
Jadi, siap-siap ya.. bila ombak menyongsong, kita harus siap toh..
Kita hanya pengelola dari peluang dan masalah yang diberikan oleh-Nya.. Jadi peribahasanya ditambah ya : Kadang hidup seperti roda pedati, kadang di atas-kadang di bawah.. meskipun begitu kita harus tahu bagaimana bersikap ketika roda pedati kita sedang di bawah ataupun ketika roda pedati kita sedang berada di atas..
 
Selamat tahun baru 2006.
Semoga yang terbaik akan diberikan-Nya pada kita semua.
 
Starbucks thamrin, 30th Dec 2005
10.44 PM

20 Desember 2005

Once upon a time of feeling alone

After few times worked so hard ( I think..), travelling many places, had no time for myself by trying to kill my own time, diving in a dozen of tasks in the office.. hope that I can forget everything that has bothered me, some great memories of my history.
 
I just found that we cannot be a 'human' just by focusing on one thing only.. we still have religion to trust, family to take care, friends to hang out, and even soulmate to travel the live..
 
And right now, I'm stuck in the same place I often write blog, Starbucks thamrin. Contemplating, expressing, and writing.. Try to hide from the world, express my mind into words.. Words that stored in hidden website, with not so many people read, maybe just you and me..
 
I'm listening a jazz music, instrumental, hmm.. quite chilling me out. Suddenly I remember the novel by Seno Gumira Aji Dharma, "Jazz, Parfum dan Skandal".. The atmospher here is quite similar.. I can sense the loneliness here, mix with jazz music in the coffee shop. At the background, I hear people chatting about everything.. But, in the middle of this crowd, I can hear the silence tell me that she's still exist. Just waiting for her turn. And slowly, I'm killed by the silence..
 
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Slank - Terbunuh Sepi

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Gerimis di tengah malam ..

Ditempat sedingin ini .. aku sendiri ..

Dan tak ada ..tempat mengadu ..

Dan bibir untuk kucium..sepi membunuhku ..

Kuterlepas tak terkendali ..

Dan aku tenggelam .. semakin dalam ..

Oh tak ada .. tempat berteduh

Dan tubuh untuk kupeluk.. sepi membunuhku

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Hey, have you ever thought, how many people meet at the first time on this coffee shop? Maybe they met here... got to know each other here.. and suddenly good thing happened..
 
Actually, what do you want to do in this life? Just playing around? Or working so hard? And suddenly your time has passed away? Or you may have a GREAT life.. not just a good one. A great life is not taken for granted, right? You have to fulfil it with so many good and also, offcourse, sometimes bad things.
 
How old will you be when you pass away? 20, 40, 60, 80, or even 100 years? You'll never know, but even you get 100, you will not even miss one chance of living when you only got 100 years to live..
 
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Five for fighting : 100 Years
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15 there's still time for you
Time to buy and time to lose
15, there's never a wish better than this
When you only got 100 years to live
 
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Back to the topic, have you got any plan for yourself? How about your family? Your future children? Grandchildren? Have you seen any exact clear picture of your future.. what do you really want to be happened? Or maybe you have no picture at all? Well, just don't let your fear makes you afraid to draw the dreams.. Just like my friend said: don't let the fear of striking out puts you out of the game..
 

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Kemenangan hari ini...

Bukanlah berarti kemenangan esok hari

Kegagalan hari ini...

Bukanlah kegagalan esok hari

Tak ada yang jatuh dari langit

Dengan cuma-cuma

Semua usaha dan do'a

Kebenaran hari ini

Bukanlah berarti

kebenaran saat nanti

Kebenaran bukanlah kenyataan

Hidup adalah perjuangan

Tanpa henti-henti

usah kau...

menangisi hari kemarin

Hidup adalah perjuangan

Bukanlah arah dan tujuan

Hidup adalah perjalanan

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Dewa : Hidup Adalah Perjoeangan

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Well, just grab your stick and start the game, hit your home run, don't you??

 

This is just my contemplation.. an hour of thinking.

Keeping the gear oiled.. Just to remind that my mind and soul are alive.. Standing here alone but not lonely..

 

Ciao..

 

Starbucks Thamrin, 20 Dec 2005 11:22 WIB

8 Desember 2005

After a lot of travelling schedules

These last two weeks, I went to Bandung-Cirebon and Denpasar. Well, those were inspiring journeys.. Many new things I found in the journeys.
 
When I went to bandung, actually that was my first self-driving car to Bandung (alone!). In the Cipularang toll, I bought a glass of Starbucks Frappucino. New store, still not fully-operating yet, but quite satisfying. There will be VENTI cup there..  (Big cup of starbucks coffee). Yummy :P
 
BTW, last nite I went to Jakarta Theatre's Starbucks, there were also Venti cup.. so I think, this size of cup will be sold in every starbucks' stores. Aahh, there will be much caffein run through my vein.. I must control it before I get arterioschlerosis! Shit.. :(
 
Speaking of starbucks' store, Now, I have came to at least seven of those stores *I just read magazine that they have 35 stores, last one they built it in Trans TV Tower*. Damn, how lucky they are.. having a regular customer like me.
 
So, back to the topic, after short drive to bandung and took a rest at my brother's place, I was continuing the journey to Cirebon. What a clean city, there was no litter on the road.. When I went to other cities different from jakarta, I always confused that many neat cities much more better than Jakarta. So, I wonder why jakarta get so sophisticated, but still can't manage their garbage (mane aje om sutioso???). But, like one of my boss said, It's quite hard to renovate a mosque to be a church.. old habit die hard!
 
Cirebon, nice city to get some vacation.. They have nasi jamblang in very small portion (you can eat 3 portions of it even if you're not hungry!). They also have many delicious foods and beverages, if you have interest for a culinary journey, you should try nasi jamblang, empal gentong, kerupuk kulit, etc in Cirebon.
 
Back from Cirebon to Bandung, I went to my colleague's friend who has business of hi-end audio. Damn, the hi end audio is very intriguing.. Eventhough the price is very expensive, you get what you pay for.. When I listened the music through this device set: one cd player, d/a converter, pre-amp, amplifier, speaker, when I sat in front of the set and closed my eyes, I could feel the location of the instruments that produce sound, as in I listen some live music in front of me! For this set, you should pay more than Rp.100 mil. But that's nothing, compared to a set of hi end device which cost you about Rp.5 Bil! Only one person in Indonesia has this device (from bandung). I couldn't imagine the sound produced from this device...! That's the world of Hi-end community.. they have the club for this hobby.
 
One week after this jouney, I went to bali.........! This is my fourth time go to bali this year. What a lovely, passionate, romantic, and exotic place Bali is.. I'm never bored with this place. BALI... I really love this place.. There're so many nice things happen in this place. I went there for a biz trip, to support an exhibition on a ortophedics surgeon symposium.. Actually, it shouldn't be me go there.. but, because my boss doesn't like go to bali, he passed the ticket to me.. how lucky I was.
 
My favourite band, Asia One, also performed at Hardrock Kuta.. M, I'm officially missing you now.... BTW, M is my favourite personel in the band. I was falling in love with her! BASI.. First time, I met her in hard rock jakarta.. she's not interesing first time I saw her.. but after she performed, how she sang, how she danced, DAMN, suddenly I just lost.. After I knew her much better, I found that she is very interesting.. a lady singer, who has minus-10 eyes.. So, in daily life, she has thick glass, it's so funny to see she sees from side of her eyes, it's like she had 4 eyes... Although I still can't really understand her (one of the most complicated girl I had found), I respect and admire her choice to be a band singer for one and a-half year and back to college student in May 2006. That's one of my falling in love feeling after quite long break.. (sayang kaga jodoh).. Yah, jadi 'teman tapi mesra' saja sudah senang..
 
Back to the bali trip, I spent time with band crew, hrc staff, and the DJ, his name is Ramses.. .hey, I got DJ friend now.. Many new things I found from DJ point of views.. (actually, most of them is about girl and how to lay..). Ah, it's also the same like other.. DJ juga manusia, punya rasa punya hati.. juga punya birahi.. :) Now, I have good friend there.. well, if I go to bali again, at least I get place to hang out..  HRC bali maan!! Woohooo..
 
Next trip, I'll go to jogja.. I hope I can visit hugo's and maybe meet some other people there, including my another favourite band which is from phillipine , Zynergy..
 
Finally, rite now, I just wanna say I miss the feeling of falling in love again.. can u all give me some hints?
 
Cempaka mas, My office, 8 Dec 2005 8.39 PM,
cokhy indira fasha

16 November 2005

Tempat pribadi di tempat umum vs D50

Well, saat saya menulis blog ini, saya sedang berada di Starbucks Thamrin, salah satu tempat favorit saya menghabiskan waktu setelah pulang dari pekerjaan yang memusingkan kepala. Sekarang tepat pukul 12.44 WIB, beberapa saat setelah tengah malam..

Kalau anda membaca kompas kemarin hari minggu, 13 Nov 2005, anda akan mengetahui bahwa saya sangat kesepet dengan pembahasan fenomena pada artikel "Rumahku Bukan Istanaku Lagi... " (atau kalau belum membaca, silakan lihat di sini).

Bagi saya benar bahwa di kota Jakarta yang sungguh crowded, banyak orang yang merasa jenuh di dalam keramaian, tapi juga lebih jenuh di dalam kesepian. Pulang kantor lebih menyenangkan bila kita bertemu dengan teman di tempat yang santai, minum kopi dengan alunan musik jazz seperti yang saya lakukan sekarang. Untuk saya, bahkan walaupun tanpa teman, tidak rugi saya menghabiskan waktu di kafe dengan kopi khusus dan laptop ber-wifi mencari informasi baru, membaca email, mengupdate friendster, atau bahkan sekedar menulis blog iseng.

Baru saja saya ber-sms ria dengan seorang klien sekaligus teman dekat saya. Orangnya sangat memperhatikan saya, sehingga kadang-kadang ada indikasi jatuh hati kepada saya. GR boleh GR, tapi tadi dia sedikit meng-komplain saya dengan aktivitas yang sedang saya dilakukan sekarang. Berhubung saya merasa nyaman untuk berkata apa adanya kepada wanita ini, bahwa saya menikmati kegiatan seperti ini.. maklum tidak banyak yang bisa dilakukan di rumah, selain tidur dan nonton DVD atau baca buku.

Well, berhubung saya sedang malas untuk melakukan dua hal terakhir apalagi untuk masalah tidur, saya berusaha melakukan seperlunya saja, jadi saya merasa kurang relevan pulang ke rumah cepat. Walaupun dengan menghabiskan uang rata-rata 50 ribu rupiah, saya merasa hal ini worthed. Do you feel the same way?

The bad news is, I have difficulties saving money to buy D50 if I'm still doing the same thing. Basi ga tuh... Doain ye biar saya bisa nabung dengan benar! Katanya mau jadi orang yang mau memperbudak uang... My financial planning skill still needs improvement.

Aaaa..... D50, aku menginginkanmuh.......

Jakarta, 16 Nov 2005 1:07 WIB

13 November 2005

Teman lama, hunting, dan mengenai ada-tiada

Beberapa hari ini, gw dan dua orang teman laki-laki gw sering jalan sama beberapa teman wanita SMA dulu, ningrum *AKA. ningsih* dan onne. Walaupun dulu tidak terlalu dekat, sekarang kita jadi teman yang akrab. Kalau dulu hanya selewat saja, sekarang nabrak.. Gw ikutan 2 kali aja tapi Wika dan Wisnu jalan sama mereka EMPAT HARI BERTURUT-TURUT. Bayangin, kalo bikin proposal lomba 17-an udah jadi dua tuh!

Dimulai dari ketidaksengajaan bertemu di tempat temen kembar gw, keluar bareng dan akrab banget. Padahal dulu kalo ketemu cuma say hi doang, sekarang kok jadi sobatan bener yak? Mulai hang out di starbucks Djakarta Teater, nyari DVD bajakan, nonton bareng, sampe akhirnya ke HRC bareng, joget lagi…

Dasar jomblo happy hour semua!

Bener yah, ga tau ada sparkling2 atau tidak, tapi kecenderungan as single person, gw melihat bahwa jalan bareng itu bisa menghilangkan perasaan kesepian lagi ga punya hubungan khusus sama lawan jenis. *Huahuahuaaaaaaa…:( *

Kalo keterusan bisa2 jadi dah tuh… buktinya sudah ada undangan2 dari teman wanita gw untuk menghadiri pernikahan bersama (yang tentunya ditolak sama teman saya, yang baru putus itu loh…). Hahaha, masih bingung, dia belon get over…

BTW, kemaren di HRC hunting foto. Cukup seru, dengan kamera SLR digital Nikon D70 punya si wika, ternyata bisa menghasilkan beberapa gambar yang lumayan. Buat yang mau tahu apakah itu kamera SLR, silakan lihat di sini.

Sudah lama ga pegang kamera ternyata masih punya feeling juga, tinggal diasah lagi sedikit. Wisnu, official model of the day, tampak bersemangat menjalankan perannya menjadi model dadakan di EX. Lokasinya sendiri juga asik, dengan interior yang bagus, warna warni lagi. Sayang, pada cahaya rendah, kameranya harus pake blitz. Jadi ga terlalu bagus warnanya… Ini adalah beberapa gambar hasil perburuan :








Kalo begini sih, sepertinya jadi deh gw beli kamera digital SLR. Nikon D50 aja ah, yang terjangkau dikit. Tinggal dicari aja kalkulasi finansialnya. Jadi deh gw tukang poto keliling, cari proyek buat pembiayaan beli peralatan fotografi baru...

Beberapa hari yang lalu, entah di mana, gw menemukan kata-kata yang ’dalam’ di internet dan membuat gw berpikir dalam.
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We join spokes in a wheel
but it is the center hole
that makes the wagon move

We shape clay into pot
but it is the emptiness inside
that holds whatever we want

We hammer wood for a house
but it is the inner space
that makes it livable

We work with being
but not-being is what we use

[Lao Tzu, 'Tao Te Ching', hoofdstuk 11, ca. 500v.Chr]
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Do you agree with him? Well, I do.
Keberadaan tidak bisa menghilangkan ketidakberadaan, begitu pula sebaliknya...

Jakarta, 13 Nov 2005 - 11.42


7 November 2005

Love song for no one

These days, I found myself often met old friends from high school. They're twins...
Actually, I met them because I was needed by my best friend to be his wing person for meeting these twin sisters.

The fact that I'm interested in is new perspective from women's point of view about men-women relationship. OK, maybe not all kind of women's view, but at least the twins' view about relationship! *cokhy, don't generalize people!*

I have many long-hour discussions about relationship with men, but I rarely talk about this thing to women. And I found that few people *not only women* are living by their love. Love is the biggest slice of their life, the majority, more than 75%! If their love life is failed, then they're TOTALLY not happy with their live. Their life is ruined!

I contemplate to myself... Now, I'm single, often 'meeting' with some women, finding interesting points of women, trying to find my soul mate. Even though, I still have no luck in this area, I learn many things about relationship.

I learn the psychology of fear approaching woman and try to beat it. I learn to understand women, to make them comfortable by being myself, the methods of being 'the one' for the woman. In the path of learning, sometimes I feel that these movements make me feeling guilty. The twins said, like other people told me so, KARMA will get me!! *damn*

Also, these learning things don't take me to my soul mate. I just found these women liked me, I never *not yet* really fall in love with a girl.

My last falling-in-love moment was with lovely Ms. PHM in Jan-Mar 2005. I have had over her... But, it was a hard time to forget her... It has never been easy to erase someone that un-empty your heart! You must see a movie: "Eternal sunshine of spotless mind".

Now, I'm still stuck with my method finding my true love. Try to find needle in hay stack by removing hay one-by-one. Maybe I will give up later, try another method to find the one. But the question is: "Could I have missed my chance and watch you walk away?"
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John Mayer's Song : "Love Song For No One"
Stay at home alone on a Friday
Flat on my floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes have faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
Get here..

Searching all my days just to find you
Not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Till then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Just staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
Oh no away
yadadadada
dadadada
dadada..

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me
Ohh I know you'll be so good for me
For me

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Jakarta, Nov 7th, 2005 - 16.02 WIB

6 November 2005

Liburan Idul Fitri

Liburan Idul Fitri kali ini tidak seperti biasanya. H+4, hari senin ini sudah harus masuk kerja, maklum belum satu tahun di B Braun, perusahaan baru saya. Oleh karena waktu yang tersedia sangat terbatas, maka harus dimanfaatkan dengan baik dong. Makanya H+1, keluarga saya dan saya pergi ke bandung mengunjungi kakek dan nenek. Karena sekarang, H+2, ada waktu luang, saya bertualang kembali ke nostalgia lama.

Well, right now I'm at my 'old home', Studio Komputer Lantai 4 Departemen Biologi ITB. This place was used to be my very first home. I lived here since 2001 ‘til 2004. Quite long huh? I worked, played, slept, dreamed, even took a bath here. I rarely visited my'kos2an' (dormitory) just to put my laundry there. Therest, I did here...
I'm seeing my old photo files, like Bali tour, excursion to Panjalu Lake (west java), even my ‘room mates’ here.
These are some pictures I want to show u..







This picture shows my room mates and I had dinner at preparation room near studio komputer. This so many people also slept in this room... I’ll show you later the picture...




This picture shows my excursion to Panjalu Lake. It was a lovely lake. In the middle of this lake, there is an island with many huge bats living there.

There are so many nostalgic memories I can see from this place... Too bad, preparation room was already taken back by the department. There were also many memories in that other side of 4th floor of Departmentof Biology ITB.


I think there are few places which are not influenced by time. Sometimes we have to get back to those places, just to remind us who we were, just to remind us to keep moving forward.

Bandung, November 6th, 2005

31 Oktober 2005

Surgery

Here I am, come back from 'unblogged' life..

Well, for people who does not know me, I am Cokhy. Now, I'm working on a surgical product company called B Braun.

Today, I just 'participated' in a surgery at RS MMC Jakarta, implanting my chemotherapy device called "Celsite Access Port" into a patient . Basically, it is just a simple catether put into a vascular goes directly to your heart. But, the implantation is not as simple as the device is.

Today is the first implantation for the surgeons. Because they were not familiar to this device, they still needed my assistancy to implant it. I just found out that not all doctors are capable doing things professionally. I felt dizzy when I saw one of the surgeon tried to find a vein by punch a big-big needle into patient's neck many times just because he could found the patient's vein. Phew..

Today I know that "Dokter juga manusia!". They still need to learn things for their own professional skill and I can see now, which one is well-trained doctor, which one is not!

Thanks God, the surgery went well. The patient will be OK and enjoy his improved quality of life.

The second fact is that the cost of the action is very expensive. For that kind of simple surgery, they will cost you 10 million rupiahs. Plus, the device is about 8-10 mil (they buy from me about 6 mil). Total, the implantation will cost you 20 million rupiahs. Damn, what a cost!

So people, the conclusion is please analyze your doctor who treat you. Ask their previous patients or people around him/her whether he/she is good or not! Because, whether he/she is good or not, he/she will charge you a very expensive cost!

That's a fact in the lovely Indonesia and you should prepare for it!