Love song for no one

These days, I found myself often met old friends from high school. They're twins...
Actually, I met them because I was needed by my best friend to be his wing person for meeting these twin sisters.

The fact that I'm interested in is new perspective from women's point of view about men-women relationship. OK, maybe not all kind of women's view, but at least the twins' view about relationship! *cokhy, don't generalize people!*

I have many long-hour discussions about relationship with men, but I rarely talk about this thing to women. And I found that few people *not only women* are living by their love. Love is the biggest slice of their life, the majority, more than 75%! If their love life is failed, then they're TOTALLY not happy with their live. Their life is ruined!

I contemplate to myself... Now, I'm single, often 'meeting' with some women, finding interesting points of women, trying to find my soul mate. Even though, I still have no luck in this area, I learn many things about relationship.

I learn the psychology of fear approaching woman and try to beat it. I learn to understand women, to make them comfortable by being myself, the methods of being 'the one' for the woman. In the path of learning, sometimes I feel that these movements make me feeling guilty. The twins said, like other people told me so, KARMA will get me!! *damn*

Also, these learning things don't take me to my soul mate. I just found these women liked me, I never *not yet* really fall in love with a girl.

My last falling-in-love moment was with lovely Ms. PHM in Jan-Mar 2005. I have had over her... But, it was a hard time to forget her... It has never been easy to erase someone that un-empty your heart! You must see a movie: "Eternal sunshine of spotless mind".

Now, I'm still stuck with my method finding my true love. Try to find needle in hay stack by removing hay one-by-one. Maybe I will give up later, try another method to find the one. But the question is: "Could I have missed my chance and watch you walk away?"
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John Mayer's Song : "Love Song For No One"
Stay at home alone on a Friday
Flat on my floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes have faded
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it
I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
Get here..

Searching all my days just to find you
Not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Till then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Just staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone

So hurry up and get here
I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
Oh no away
yadadadada
dadadada
dadada..

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me
Ohh I know you'll be so good for me
For me
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Jakarta, Nov 7th, 2005 - 16.02 WIB